not so great start?
It has just been two months into the new year and everyone is posting shit about new year new me but somehow the new me is facing lots of shit this year. By writing all these down, I have some hope that it will all go away but I know that it couldn't be so I'm just sharing for those who feel the same as I do now and for those who will have some joy in knowing some other people are in pain. For starters, I found out that people I consider to be friends were systematically excluding me from stuff. I don't know how long this has been going but I'm sure as hell they were not openly excluding me. I got a shock when they openly admit to people that they were intentionally excluding me. I know this sounds childish and all but I guess I do care about these people and what they think about me. I really thought they were friends. Oh who am I even kidding. I wanted friends that I could care about their feelings and thoughts for me not just any random people who shared a certain ...