not so great start?

It has just been two months into the new year and everyone is posting shit about new year new me but somehow the new me is facing lots of shit this year. By writing all these down, I have some hope that it will all go away but I know that it couldn't be so I'm just sharing for those who feel the same as I do now and for those who will have some joy in knowing some other people are in pain.

For starters, I found out that people I consider to be friends were systematically excluding me from stuff. I don't know how long this has been going but I'm sure as hell they were not openly excluding me. I got a shock when they openly admit to people that they were intentionally excluding me. I know this sounds childish and all but I guess I do care about these people and what they think about me. I really thought they were friends. Oh who am I even kidding. I wanted friends that I could care about their feelings and thoughts for me not just any random people who shared a certain time period in my life. But it still sucked. Knowing that you were excluded. I guess I am still human after all no matter how hard I tried not to be.

After writing the first part down, I realised that all the other shit were not as shitty as the first one and it is really not as big of a deal as the first one. Nothing can compare to being back stabbed by people you consider as friends. Unless well you have lost your loved ones then I'm sorry to hear that.

I should end this with a positive note or else it would just seem pathetic and depressing. Well its just the first two months of 2018 there is still time for shittier stuff to come.